It was the end of 2008 when I created my first blog. From there I'd spend 10 years consistently writing and publishing content.
The addiction to blogging first started with a website called Miss Too Sexy For You. The title was a confidence booster. Basically I was one of those people that was creating an online persona that didn't match my real life persona. I didn't know what I was doing. All I knew was that it was my space to post pictures, reveal new poems, short stories, and just ramble on an on as much as I wanted to. No one was controlling what I said either. I was freedom. Eventually I changed the name of the website to math my in real life person.
I was searching for my place in life, so Searching For My Star was born. All of the previous content stayed. I just added on more. While writing, I was reading others' blogs. I started to want to be like them. They were being taken seriously as writers. They had great content. They were organized with their timeliness in publishing, or at least from the outside it seemed that way. They were missed. There are some specific bloggers that built a demand so big, when they took breaks people would reach out to them asking if they were okay. This motivated me and wore me out at the same time.
I was already trying to get used to stressors from the everyday work/fun/rest life balance. Trying to be that accomplished blogger that I saw others becoming took me over the edge. It wore me out. I'm sure it showed in the content I was putting out too.
Some people may say I'm already accomplished, but I don't feel like it. I haven't yet felt it in my personal or professional life. But I'm slowly coming back. My break away from this passion is slowly ending. However, I'm going to pace myself and deliver much better content.
